Sunday, December 07, 2008

Sports Life Ruined When I Am 16. Sobb Sry dudes. Didn't blog for this few days because i was unable to do so. I was lying in the hospital since wed till finally when yesterday the doctor said that i could be discharged. I suffered from an ankle dislocation and a minor fracture. Now my leg looks nothing much better than a pig's leg. I can't move out or go out of the house for 4 to 6 weeks till my legs are recovered. I regretted after that day when i dislocated my ankle.

The doctor told me that i can no longer play vigorious sports. I could only play them for leisure. This means that i can no longer take part in tournaments and stuffs. My role in PRSS volleyball team is an open spiker and the team captian. Now everything is GONE! I can no longer be as active as i used to be. For anyone who knows me i am a very active person and i love sports. All kinds of sports. For my conditions now, i can't really do much. I have let the school team down, i have let the coach down, i have let all my friends who wans to see me play in the tournament next year down, and most importantly i have let myself down.

I really hope that i can go back to the past to change things. I really did not wan this kind of things to happen to me. I really hope that someone could just return me one perfect ankle so that all this could past. Everytime when i think of the times that i have fun in the court regardless of whether it is a volleyball or basketball court i just wanna cry. I really can't control myself. Everytime on television when i see all this sports i just can't control myself and i just wanna cry. Not everyone can understand this pain of mine.

People around me always asked me to give up on the sports i loved to play but have anyone of u have ever thought of how i feel. For me to give up something i love most in my life. I grow up with this kind of life and i wan to continue with this kind of life because i love it. I don't wan to live in a life that does not belong to me. I don't wan to live in a life without excitements, without sports. Sports have already become something which is found in my life. By asking me to take sports away from my life is just the same as taking a knife and stabb it into my heart. For 16 years in my life i have played all sorts of sports and grew up with them.

For now, i just don know wad i need to do just to get back the life i used to and loved to live in. typing this post already made me cry infront of the comp as i recall all the happy memories i have in different kinds of tournament. Now all this happy moments have to stop for me, i can no longer have the feeling of being in the court of a volleyball or basketball tournament anymore!!!

Every word i type here makes my heart feels more and more painful. I think i will end my post here. I REGRETTED! I REGRETTED! I REGRETTED! Sorry if i made any of u cry after reading this post. But i just can't help it. Sorry.

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6:35 AM